Choice

 Made a choice to accept myself and move on, I let out the truth and sadness came along. 

Things have settled down. I am not deceiving anyone anymore. My guilt is no more and a smile is shining upon my face as my close ones accept my grave mistake.

I only wish I had spoken earlier, but things are turning out well.

There is a change of environment there is a change of people and especially a change of mindset. 

I am free from thoughts that once troubled me and I no longer require to be in darkness. I choose to comfort myself with the future and learn from my past. I speak the truth and in case if i'm stuck I move to my loved ones. How easy it is to have a word with people around and how easy it is to talk, but seldom we find ourselves stuck, should we really share what we are feeling or should we choose to hide it. Its easy to talk, but difficult to explain what we are going through- this was a thought of past. I can now find people who really love me for who I am, correct me when I make mistakes, hold my hand and put me on the right path. I know there are many who understand what I have written in the past, some may think I have taken the path of death- I would have, yet I have found another way of life. I had 2 choices to either let go and to cave in. I caved in and so can you, if a person goes through something so serious and he chooses to hide it, he will die in the guilt. Its best to talk to someone, the mind cannot be stopped. 

The mind cannot be controlled with substance, its only temporary. Once you are off it, things kick in again and this time the mind is unstoppable- this is where substance abuse kicks in. The tag of addiction and name of junkie is tagged along with the person. 

It is difficult, you might think its easy for someone to say things who hasn't gone through stuff. I have gone through it, not for weeks, but for months. And my advice to people is just that things take time to adjust once you let out your dishonesty. 

Some people take it lightly some people might be affected deeply and its the later who care about you so much. Even if you have done a sin, they stick with you till the end. They guide you, they take this step to take you out of the things you have gotten yourself into.

Let me tell you, they were my parents. It can be your family or even friends sometimes strangers who don't judge but hear what you have to say. They are blunt because they don't have any emotions attached to you. 

You need to trust the process. Its only then you will find happiness again. Things don't come easy you have to earn them. And to earn happiness it will take a huge toll on the mental state. Don't give up- Keep living. Life is not easy it takes time to build what you have lost and once you get them all back, don't ever loose the hope again.

My advice- Trust yourself and you will never fail. Keep living because there is always the good side waiting to come for you.