The Choice : Part 3
To make choices becomes the hardest decision when no one is
by your side, it hurts to think that you will either be left alone or shunned
for the whole life.
As I lie over my bed pondering upon the decision I must
make, to choose whether to live or die, what shall I take?
My whole life I have stood upon lies and If I let out the
truth, I am about to lose my life.
My loved ones and family aren’t going to take this lie.
I think of ways to lie and escape, thinking to end my
relations that I have made with everyone I have ever met. I pick up my phone in
the middle of the night just to have a final look at pictures from my past
life.
I immediately start thinking of dying as this lie is
gruesome and in fact of a worst kind. I remove my contacts and media from my
phone just as I have one last look at it.
Crying the whole night made me realise I am going to lose so
much- should I run away, or shall I end myself? These thoughts run in my mind.
The courage and a helping hand were all that was needed, but
I was too broke and filled with lies that everything faded.
Its 5 AM and the world is still asleep, but my mind and body
are terrified.
Who shall I call? I need to talk someone, but what would I
say? My mind cannot comprehend things. But I grasp the courage to text a person
to tell them that I’m committing a sin and going to take my life away.
I cry, but this time my body is too tired and gripped with
fear.
The gruesome lie, I had hoped that this would never come out but one day or another the truth finally comes out.
And this was the day where I decided to muster up the courage
to either stay or take away my soul and give it away.
My mind was filled with remorse and sadness and then the thought of leaving everything came to wake.
Lying about the fact that I was fine, but psychology tensed
around all the time.
My mind freaked and the darkness so great, that I couldn’t
tell anyone or hoped,that they’ll stay.
I fell down ,just to hold my breath.
My eyes go blank, so does my mind.
I see nothing but dark as my eyes close, is this how death feels like? Am I dead? I lie unconscious on the floor, gripped with fear and seeking death as my only hope...
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